Monday, January 31, 2005
bleh, everything i typed is gone..i shall make it short...went church, bought lunch for my sis then went out for lunch... came home and did some spring cleaning...didnt know i had so much rubbish ahaha...2 garbage bags to be exact ahha... i still had my pri sch books!! haha.. then helped out around the house and all... then went for dinner... so we went to breadtalk to buy some breakfast for tmr... then i was at the counter waiting to pay then the woman said "good evening sir" then at the moment i was kinda stunned so it didnt process yet but after awhile i got it then ya ahha...this is the 2nd time can! the 1st time was the woman and Mcs ahah... whoa... ahaha...kk,i gtg...gotta study...tc!



Sunday, January 30, 2005
hmm... got up at 8+ this morning for piano... think im kinda getting the hang of it ahha... then changed the bedsheets... took me like super long to...(dont ask why) then i had to do my sis's one too cos she was having training... then my maths tuitor cancelled on me so i went to the market with my mom... came home and helped her around the house... then went out with rah, mel and poon... after awhile met up with chris and elaine... went to cut hair where we met juli.. was talking and stuff...sarah peh came... then we went back to wisma to meet chris... met up with jo and her friend who thought i was a guy (haha) then walked to cine...sat down for like 5, 10 mins... then went to taka with chris and elaine cos my mom wanted me to pick up sth which i didnt even know wad i looked like ahha... but bought it anyway... took 14 with them then ya...went out for dinner with my family and yep! thats it...

Lifehouse
Hanging by a moment

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where
I started
I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm tapping into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you



Saturday, January 29, 2005
today wad alright... chinese mock exam...made a few mistakes but i guess it should be alright... training after school... mann... i really gotta brush up on my passes... hmm... my maid is gone... so i gotta help out around the house haha... oh, was listening to my mp3 but it died on me!! batt flat ahha...

si hui: whoa! its totally damn sweet mann! jealous hahhaha.... next time wait for my training to end first then go home k? ahhaha.. tc pts!

Mario
let me love you

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume,
the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are,
you stick around and I just don't know why
If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you,you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Listen
Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes,
Out of control, baby you know
If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Ooh Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me....

You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl (baby)
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you,
love you,
love you



Friday, January 28, 2005
i played totally horribly ytd!!! dont think i'll get another chance to play alr but heck, i dont really care anymore ahha... the WA was super violent sia! she pushed me then i had stepping and the umpire gave the ball to her!!!! ... i should stop crying over spilt milk... hmm.. yep..then after the game linhui, mel and i went to tiong where we met up with chris and her friends ahha... she's super funny haha...
hmm...today was quite alright.. maths was fun haha... went home with rah... Thanks rah for gng home with me! ahha... then had piano lessons for like 2 hours...almost died... and i have to finish another 5 papers by saturday... im gonna die can ahha... think im seriously lacking sleep ahha... but its alright, the weekend is near ahha...

replies to my board:
mel: sorry!! hahha...my spelling is atrocious ahah... ss was super rubbish-ted hahaha...

yimin: hey! ahha...

...: urm...okkkay....

candice: heys! no prob, tc of your ankle k... i hate that wa!! ahha... you played well k, tc!

Wednesday, January 26, 2005
today...school was alright... love the ss lesson, we were totally gossiping then when miss tan walked past, we said "population growth" super loud HAHAHA... super lame.. went for junior's match... they played really well the first 3 quarters but i didnt really see the last quart cos i was running to the canteen with ym to get ice for shannah... then before that, they also made me get ice again so i was like a mad person running all over the place ahahha... oh!! jaime taught me how to count from one to ten in jap ahhaha... so fun!! haha... hmm... then ya...

oh ya! today mrs shankar said my hair is improving... but like wth!! i was totally planning to cut it... whoa... then after the match, i asked mrs lim if i could cut my hair then she said can but only TRIM!! TRIM!! she emphasized so much on that word k ahha... then mdm lim said only half an inch..thats as good as not cutting at all!! haha...mrs lim said i cant cut so short cos invest's coming and mr sng will come after me if its too short ahhaha...

oh ya, my maid;s leaving this friday...whoa, then i have to get up myself... think i'll be late for school hahha... but i'll miss her... and i dont have time to get smt for her....hmmm...



Monday, January 24, 2005
im back!! ahah... the trip was totally great! my sisters and i shared a junior suite!! it was damn nice sia... we had connecting rooms with mom & dad... the room was damn nice!!! the toilet had a bath tub as well as a standing shower and the sink area there was damn big la ahha... oh! there was also a table in the room ahhaha... totally love the room... did lots of shopping, and i mean lots! haha... whoa man, wish i was back there haha... im too lazy to go into the details so ya ahha... back to school tmr... hmm... training tmr haha.... cant wait! i love training haha... i wanna see my chio bu!! hahah... i still think she's chio k haha... yay! can see chris on wednesday ahha...

hey chris! thanks for the chocolates!! love 'em haha... take care! see ya on wed!

to that person on my tagboard: wad does it matter to you?

Friday, January 21, 2005
to the juniors: heys! congrats ya... rest well tonight k, you'll deserve it... krystal, pls take care of your finger and leg... si hui: well done pts! thanks for the shirt ya, i love it... to the rest of them, well done!!

today...school was alright... juniors had their match... full of carelessness but ya.. saw chris there with her juniors haha... and i found my new chio bu!! i think she's damn chio but they all dont think so ahha... but i dont care wad they think, i still think she's chio ahhaa... think chris is very cute sia ahhaha.... too lazy to give details haha...

gng kl tmr!! hahaha... yay! finished my homework alr.. just need to study for geog ahhaha... thanks poon for my books ahha...

whoa... still thinking about my chio girl haha...



Thursday, January 20, 2005
I LOVE THE TEAM!!! hahaha... i love all of you!!! thanks so much k, i was and am still so super touched... whoa... i love you'll!!! ahhaha... thanks everyone for the presents ya... sorry i couldnt be in school and all... so ya... hmm... whoa.. the cake looked damn nice can!! although the lines werent straight haha... but i still loved its.. thanks... i had a fantastic time... i really hope my birthday comes through k, but i cant tell anyone if not it wont come true ahah... oh ya! thank you jaime for biting me ahha... tmr i'll see if got blue-black not haha... mel2, thanks for taking my homework ya? tc!! to the juniors, heys, all the best for your game k, we'll be there supporting you all the way!! just watch your passes and fouls... shooters pls put ever ball in kies? dont waste it... drink lots of water and rest lots tonight! tc...

"don't wanna talk about it i say why not don't wanna think about it i say there's got to be some good reason for your little black backpack up, smack, turnaround he's on his back don't want to tango with youi'd rather tangle with him i think i'm gonna bash his head in and this shouldn't concern you except just don't expect to get your bloody black backpack back"

i love that song!! haha...its damn cute...try to dl it ahhaha....
oh ya!! today didnt see any chio bu at the courts ahah... maybe cos i was i was looking at them play haha... nvm, tmr we'll see haha...oh ya! christina quek is damn cute la k ahahha... too lazy to type anymore so ya haha...



Wednesday, January 19, 2005
my birthday is in like wad, 15 mins? but it dont seem that special afterall... im just gng back to school tmr from like 645 to latest 715 just to pop by...thats all... after that i have to rush home to prepare for the funeral... today was quite an experience and all... kinda miss him know...but like we wern't close but ya... im gonna be missing the eye disection tmr... was totally looking forward to that... but, family comes first... and our first match is tmr... and i cant even be there!!! i cried like so many times over that can... whoa... at first my parents didnt allow me to go school in the morning tmr... but like i asked them to just give me half and hour with my friends and they allowed... just last week i was totally looking forward to tmr... but everything seemed to change... nvm... i'll just have to live with it... you know... my grandfather looked very peaceful... first time in my life i have seen a dead body... but ya..

shaleen: pls take care of yourself cos you weren't feeling well today and ya...

mel: thanks for everything ya...

pts`24: thanks pts... i'll try my best...

the team: heys...im really sorry for not being able to turn up tmr... just win the match for me kies? play your best, take the game at your own pace, watch your contacts, stepping and obstructions esp jaime and yongern... ym, watch your ankle k... alicia and elaine: pls put all the shots in kies!! just all the best ya... i'll try my best to rush down.... thanks...

Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Happy birthday mel2!!

hey mel, have a happy birthday k...may all your wishes come true(though i know its impossible ahha) enjoy whats left of your special day (4 hours to be exact)

school was alright... after school was horrible...didnt have the mood to train... dunno why, during training, i sensed smt was wrong... then i came home and my mom told me my grandfather passed away... in addition, its 2 days before my bday... my dad said if there's a funeral tmr, he'll bring my sisters and i for a short while... totally had no appetite to eat... maybe cos i drowned myself in water before dinner... anyways, hope tmr'll be a better day... oh ya, my m'sia trip this weekend is called off...so i'll be gng for church,....
/i think i cut too deep....

PLACEBO LYRICS

"Every You Every Me"

Sucker love is heaven sent.

You pucker up, our passion's spent.

My hearts a tart, your body's rent.

My body's broken, yours is bent.

Carve your name into my arm.

Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.

Cuz there's nothing else to do,

Every me and every you.

Sucker love, a box I choose.

No other box I choose to use.

Another love I would abuse,

No circumstances could excuse.

In the shape of things to come.

Too much poison come undone.

Cuz there's nothing else to do,

Every me and every you.

Every me and every you,

Every Me...he

Sucker love is known to swing.

Prone to cling and waste these things.

Pucker up for heavens sake.

There's never been so much at stake.

I serve my head up on a plate.

It's only comfort, calling late.

Cuz there's nothing else to do,

Every me and every you.

Every me and every you,

Every Me...he

Every me and every you,

Every Me...he

Like the naked leads the blind.

I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind.

Sucker love I always find,

Someone to bruise and leave behind.

All alone in space and time.

There's nothing here but what here's mine.

Something borrowed, something blue.

Every me and every you.

Every me and every you,

Every Me...he

Monday, January 17, 2005
yay!! my compo is finally done!!! haha... cant believe i wrote like 950+ words?? ahahhaha... think i went a little overboard with that haha... well, i really shouldnt be online right now, i still have to study for chinese, bio and geog ahha... 3 more days!!! HAHAHA...mel's is tmr so hmmm... ahahha... oh ya! im totally in love with the song "always" by blink 182...



Sunday, January 16, 2005

I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
And I'll miss your laugh your smile
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights I hate them
Lets start this again for real
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
Always
Always

Saturday, January 15, 2005
today...hmm... was quite alright la... must remind jean to make the invest speech ahahah... she's doing the speech and im doing the pledge ahhaha.... training was alright... some things should be left unsaid... i need to work on my passes man.. haha... the fastest way thing... i like cannot judge properly haha...nvm, hopefully i'll get the hang of it by next week ahha... oh!!! i know wad i want for my birthday!!! to win 4/5 schools...so we can get into the next round...
ym said my chio girl is not that chio... but from far she looks damn chio lei... nvm, i'll find some other chio-er girl to drool over hahahah....



Friday, January 14, 2005
today's a damn good day sia... the packing thing was fun!! hahaha... then came back to school and hanged out with the netballers for awhile...then at the bus stop...omg...there was this super chio girl can...she's really2 damn chio, like drop dead gorgeous type, you know... whoa... ym told me to stop drooling HAHAHAH.... that was super funny ahha...but she's really2 damn chio....
came home and fell in love!! she's damn sleek...she's damn chio... it was love at first sight... she's my new ipod shuffle!!! my sis got it for my birthday...whoa...she's damn chio... i'll take care of her super well haha... im like so super happy today ahah... but that girl at the bus stop was really2 super chio... hahha....



Thursday, January 13, 2005
whoa!!!! she said my hair is short!!! and like wad else ah... oh ya! "we dont want handsome girls in our school" and also smt like... "i dont mean to pin point anyone" but like she was staring at me the whole time!!! and i was like damn irritated la..and like the whole class was laughing, INCLUDING mel and shaleen...whoa...i was damn pissed can... and she said smt about the sec 1s having crushes on us but like as if we want it... but i still cant believe she said my hair is short!!! but its like so long can! i wanted to cut it know.... whoa....
went for a jog today...to relieve stress aahha...and also to relieve the pain in my leg but it has seemed to gotten worst ahhaha.... then there was this doggy, damn cute la!!! AHAHHA.... oh ya! went out with tsk today...had lunch at ikea and saw jaime haha...then we went to queensway to find out the price of the council badge cos we need to make it for the invest....we walked like totally everywhere can! the cheapest is like $6.50 and the ex-est was $8.50 whoa... then we called mrs lim and she told us dont order and we were like "whoa" and we sat down and didnt want to move hahaha...then tsk dropped me home, so nice can ahah...
oh ya!! my pts's locker is no1 and she cannot reach ahaha...so tall ppl around that area pls help her out ahhaha....
and also, we're gonna do the eyeball disection on my birthday!!! AAHHAHA...damn funky sia... good present aahha.... better than mel's cos we have bio test on monday ahhaha....



Wednesday, January 12, 2005
its been a bad day...

im not gonna blog about it...

some things are better left unsaid...

this is one of the times

when i need some one to talk to...

some one whom i can trust...

then again...

its a long story...

no one can experience it as i have...

no one can understand me...

i shall just leave it at that...

just watch me slowly eat myself

inside out

Saturday, January 08, 2005
woohoo!!! orientation's over!!! AHAHHAHA.... im damn happy!!! i would like to thank all the councillors and cherie, jean, yan2 and tsk!!! i THINK its a success... it turned out quite alright, i guess...except for the few time that i ALMOST cried...really2 almost cried...like the last day right, the lunch was so dots... i was just waiting for the loud hailer so that i could dismiss the girls cos my voice couldnt possible "over-power" the 280+ girls...but then she had to step in and take charge... I HAD EVERYTHING UNDER CONTROL!!! so like when a teacher steps in, it makes it seem as if i couldnt handle it...but i could!!! bah... call me wadever you want but i know i could've done it... then dinner...i really almost cried...dinner was so screwed up... dunno wad happened, we were supposed to have 1 vegetarian leftover but we had 2 so like i just left it there...i even went round asking the councillors if they had taken all and they said yes...so ya... then after awhile, think it was 1D, they were shot of 2 vegetarian, which is incorrect... we were supposed to have 1 left over..so i panicked la! i called weiqi cos she did the food and i was doing the drink...whoa...never felt like that before... and i told mrs chu and she like started scolding me, like wth!!! she said smt like "you are a councillor" but like what does that have anything to do with the food??? it may or may not have been my fault, someone may have eaten it by mistake but you cant blame anyone and there she was scolding me and stuff....whoa, i really wanted to stab her in the chest 56 time and leave her to bleed to death....im damn pissed while typing this, im like pressing the keys super hard... but when i was walking around, this sec 1 girl said "hi stacy" and smiled at me...that really cheered me up... i dunno who that sec 1 girl is but she's very cute hahaha.... kkk, then after dinner, miss quek told me to get the canteen spotlessly clean if not my head;s on the chopping block...in other words, clean the canteen or you die... whoa... i like didnt have any help cos like all the other councillors were with their classes for the last min campfire preparation...i had to clean all the coolers myself...then she approached me and told me to get help cos i cant do it on my own, which is super true but i dunno la... then finally, help came and yep, got the canteen clean...after that i sat at the hardcourt with sexy and jean and some seniors...i really was on the verge of tears... but ya... i managed to pull thru... to my sec 1B councillors,mainly farhanh, sarah, huimin, ge hui, yangwei and patricia... im sorry for not really helping out with the class and stuff, cos like the 3 of us knew we couldnt cope with the organisation and a class at the same time...so thank you all very much... hmm...then the campfire... edlyn and delisa did a fantastic job as the emcees...then ya...jean too cos she was in charge of it... then i went all the way upstairs to get chairs for mrs kong and mrs poh but they say dont need, whoa...i was like so dots can ahha... then like that ya...the campfire was a success, according to me...oh, then elaine and ym came back for the campfire...thanks haha...but half the time i was running around the place haha... yep...campfire;s over! now back to the books...hmm...yep... once again, thank you councillors for everything!

Sum 41
Pieces

I tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it.
I don't believe it makes me real.
I thought it'd be easy but no one believes me.
I meant all the things I said.
If you'd believe it's in my soul,
I'd say all the words that I know just to see if it would show.
Now I'm trying to let you know that I'm better off on my own.
This place is so empty.
My thoughts are so tempting.
I don't know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it's so crazy but nothing can save me
but it's the only thing that I have.
If you'd believe it's in my soul,
I'd say all the words that I know just to see if it would show.
Now I'm trying to let you know that I'm better off on my own.
I tried to be perfect,
it just wasn't worth it.
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It's hard to believe me.
It never gets easy.
I guess I knew that all along.
If you'd believe it's in my soul,
I'd say all the words that I know just to see if it would show.
Now I'm trying to let you know that I'm better off on my own.

Friday, January 07, 2005
1 more day!!! i cant wait...orientation's gonna end tmr,....i have a feeling tmr will go fine cos we planned very throughly hahah... whoa, today shanna kenna injured, my heart almost broke can!!! damn heart pain... hmm.... nothing much to say alr haha...

i tried...i really tried to save our friendship but i dont think there's any chance of it anymore... i really tried.....

Thursday, January 06, 2005
help me...im too stressed....im super surprised that mr francis didnt strangle us... my lunch was totally screwed up...its the one area i was supposed to take charge or and i screwed it up... everything was screwed up....thanks mei2 for helping me wash the rag and thanks pearl for all your help....thanks ge hui and yang wei for helping to wash the coolers....thanks jean for that msg...i wanted to give up but i saw it and it helped me to hang on...so c'mon! 2 more days... was talking with ym, elaine and sihui cos chio bu went home..i really seriously almost cried can... but it was fun talking to them... hope i can go for training tmr to relieve stress and get my mind off stuff...i miss the team...im really sorry for like "running" off to do council stuff instead of training...if i had a choice, i would rather go for training but i dont so ya... thanks pts`24 for being there for me and stuff... i'll try to relax k ahah...thank elaine for giving me water to fill my stomach cos we didnt eat since the morning... thanks ym for giving me your bread but i didnt feel like eating it haha... but thanks anyway, youre a great ats....21 days right ahhaha...



Wednesday, January 05, 2005
help me!!! orientation tmr....DIE!!! Mr francis said he;ll stranggle us if we screw up tmr...and tmr will make or break us...die... pressure... today is my ats and my 19th day HAHAHAHA...damn nice sia ahha...but like she was so sad today can...the netballers all look so down... sorry i couldnt go for training k, cos like we had to 're-do' the orientation schedule so ya... i really wanted to go for training but couldnt...sorry k...i'll try to turn up for thursday;s one k... kkk, i have to go...need to do the stuff...BYE!!! ahaha



Sunday, January 02, 2005
gonna make this a quick one... went mass today with poon, rah and glen... was totally wet cos i stubbornly didnt wanna bring umbrella and wore the wind breaker ahha.... kkk...then just now damn funny la k...i was on the phone with mr sng about tmr la then i was xbox-ing with my sis, top spin...then its career mode so like have to go thru expensive courses to like improve your forehand, backhand, volley all those la... then cos the course was difficult then my sis failed then it was expensive then while i was listening to mr sng, my sis was happily talking so loudly in the background "did we pay??" HAHAHAH...almost killed her after i got off the phone ahha...anyways, see most of ya in school tmr ya!!



Saturday, January 01, 2005
whoa man! school's gonna start in like 2 days time...and i still havent touched my chinese yet haha...but i finished all my eng!!! ahaha...you know, i have watched like 6 dvds in the past 2 days AHHAHAH... my sis and i planned to do the same after her 'a's and my 'o's ahha....
mass tmr...915...should i go?? but like its the last day before school starts and i wanna slp late...hmm...sleep or God?? ahha....used that on glen before haha.... he used it on me too and i was like feeling super guilty haha...oh! there's a bug on my screen now ahhaha....should i flick him away??? nah...i shall be nice haha.... kkk, i gtg...BYE!!! AAAHAHHAHA!!! think i had too much sleep AHHAHA.... i had like 9 hours of sleep last night and slept for an hour just now ahahah...kkk BYE!!!!!!!!!